Apr 5, 2004
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Posted at 12:39 am by chianee
Mar 1, 2004
i jus typed a longsome blog and i accidentally pressed some button which cleared away everythnig... sigh..now i gotta retype...
today is wei hang's birthdae. supposed to meet up with him but he spent his whole day with his sporean frens i had to pass his present to kahoo to pass to him cos i gotta come out to spore tonight for fire fighting couse tmr... sigh..
yea... supposed to go last semester but i totally forgot abt it .. and so i missed it ... now i gotta go alone with other klasses... so sianz.. somemore i gotta be there by 830... oh god come to my aid..
kahoo is leaving for aust on fri... so these few days i'll hav to spend some time with him in msia.. though tiring for me but i guess it's all worthwhile for dis special fren...
yup... dats life for me nowadays... gonna spend more time in msia cos i tink i left all of em out since i moved out to spore... gonna learn to be a true blue msian fr now on haha...
my sis jus told me dat 5 of her guy frens and 2 of her girl frens play for johor state basketball team...
sigh.. envy em... haha even though a lotta ppl say my bball is gd.. i still feel dat i'm lousy.. gotta play more man... but only da words come out and nothign is done... gotta put some determination in it man... so guys try da help me to dat yup...
hmmm i dun like my life now... maybe it has something gotta do with my hair... haha.. i dun like my hair... it's messy... and not da way i wan it to be.. haha i keep talkin abt my hair.. i'm particular abt it... i like to hav nice hair.. feel so vain.. haha..dats me ma man..
yah.. i dun like my life in general... cos i haven been playing ball... haven been smiling a lot ... haven been studying a lot... yea... da thang is .. i haven been wat i wanna be... maybe dats life... trying to be wan ya wanna be.. i'm jus bulling here...
Posted at 11:53 pm by chianee
Feb 14, 2004
gets tired very easily nowadays... dont know y.. cant seemed to pay much attention in sch.. esp thermodynamics.. dont know wat's going on... dont know what da lecturer is saying..
maybe cos i've been playing lotsa ball lately.. also lessons like workshop and seamanships r very tiring..
today is valentine's day... so let me wish everybody a happy vday..
Posted at 12:01 am by chianee
Feb 10, 2004
haven write my blog for a very long time ored... most of the time i've been quite busy since school started .. and also i didnt feel like writing any entry. So many things happened in this mere 1 1/2 month of 2004.. good ones and definitely the sad ones.. hmm.. is difficult to start especially so many things happened... i should blog more often instead of blogging everything in one entry..
well i played a lot of bball nowadays.. in fushan and joined sp open... got into the semi finals.. but thanks to my foolishness my team lost... we were leading the opp team by 1 point .. dumb dumb i saw the score board the other way round and tot dat we were losing by a point.. so having the urge i made a shot and missed it.. which gave the opp team a chance to turn back the table... and they did.. so we lost..
Kahoo, one of my closest fren came for holidays from his study in aust... so i went to meet him whenever i go back to msia... he grew fatter... fairer.. really seemed like he's enjoying life down there... besides dat.. he's still da same old fatty i've known.. haha.. before he went to aust to study, he was alwaes mixing with his msia frens clubbing drinkin and stuffs which i didnt like... so from then i started to drift from him... come to think abt it... i sorta regretted doing that man... well.. time really does heal things.. rite now. i tink we're alrite with each other ...at least i've gotten used to the smokes and drinking with em which i tink is good ... hmm i won't wanna lose a gd pal jus cos he's doin stuffs i dun like...
my hair is getting long.. yea.. haha.. i've alwaes wanted to keep long hair.. dont ask me y i just like my hair long... but i've nvr gotten it long due to the powerful oppositions i face -- my family and relatives. my desire of leaving long hair is alwaes being subdue by their critics against long hair... i'll have to buck up with it and try fight my way out of my family's opposition haha... is still not my desire length though.. hope everything will turn out to be fine ... am considering to trim my hair for neater look..
i'm taking up yoga lessons in sp every fridae... very weird of me to take up the lesson cos usually only girls take em up... dont know y i wanna take it up also... curiousity killed the cat i guess.. true enough only 7 guys out of 30 students took up the course... and the exercises and stretching that we do benefits more for ladies to men.. lotsa breathing involved ... so awkward man.. but i tink is kinda fun and it does help me feelin more relax and energitic provided i do em every morning ... and cos i'm alwaes late for sch... i doubt i have time to do it everyday haha..
lastly... i did something very bad.. i hurted someone very badly.. due to selfish reasons... i can only say i'm sorry... for being so cruel...
Posted at 05:18 pm by chianee
Jan 5, 2004
my 1st day of school today... and i'm late.. haha now u nkow y my 1st resolution is not to be late..
math was the 1st lesson today.. however the teacher said all those who took additional math and passed it can apply for exemption and can leave... so math did not turn out to be my 1st lesson in da end.. haha.. so seamanship became the 1st lesson ... a course teachin us to survive in case something bad happen to the ship how to lever the liveboat..how to jump ship..where to run in case of fire etc..
sounds interesting eh.. yea.. i tink so too...
anywae... i was in malaysia yesterday and my uncle who was a taiwanese where he migrated to malaysia came over to visit us... he's a university graduate but he's working as a fortune teller .. haha.. dunoe y he wanna go uni in da 1st place if he's gonna do dis kinda job.. anywae he's gd at it so he helped me read my fortune yea...
he said dat next time my work is gonna involve a lot of travellin which is so true ! haha.. i'm gonna be a sailor next time ... and he said i'm suitable to be a celebrity too!! haha.. cos he say celebrity travels as well and i'll succeed in area involve travellin so hehe.... guys.. get my signature now before it's too late!! haha..
yea den he said i'll have 2 wives... sounds nice eh guys... but the truth is he say i'll married a girl dat has passed away... SCARY! was my 1st tot... haha anyone would be upon hearing dat.. but he say is actually quite normal in china or taiwan whereby a girl passed away if wanna get married to rest in peace kinda will ask her parents who's alive to fulfill her wish... or it could be dat a girl whom i love passed away and i'd still marry her upon her death... yah... i dunoe la... but my uncle ask me not to worry he say the girl will den "look after" me when i travel .... haha... dun wanna tink abt it man...
yea lo... as for da 2nd wife my relationship will not be as close due to my work affection.. yea... so sorry to who ever u r...
yup... and he say i'll hav 3 to 4 children.... wahahha... can form bball team liao... heh...
hmm... dunoe whether is true or not... however ... i'm so focus on going out to sea now i'm gonna work my way to success ~
Posted at 09:24 pm by chianee
Jan 3, 2004
bye 2003
ya got by me so fast.. i didnt even get to know u beta... well.. is a pity dat i have to say bye to you dis way.. but dats life..
hi 2004
i hope i'll get to know u beta and we'll get along jus pretty well yup...we got sooo much things to do together... nice to meet u =)
Posted at 01:51 am by chianee
Dec 28, 2003
christmas was fun... yea wit ke and her family... nice family she hav.. i wish i hav em too.. her cousin is a lil irritating but he's stil alrite most of the time.. so.. yup it was a funfilled night of christmas wit them..
well today .. played ball in da morning.. recently dank wanted to get our team fuzan tee done to try and revitalise fuzan... try n get everyone back into da game.. so as it seemed,.. it didnt turn out gd.. besides him and me, who's eagerly tryin to get it done.. the rest jus couldnt bother.. so today.. dank decide to quit on da tee... broke the sad news to me.. but i can understand y he wanna do dat... like wat he said.. ppl come not becos they wanna game but jus cos we call em to come.. most of em weren't interested at all.. the soul of the game was gone... everything became plain play..not game..
so.. aft some thoughts.. i guess he is rite.. cant resurrect fuzan like wat jesus did to himself...
so... more or less.... fuzan is dismissed...after 5yrs of fame...
rite.. my team is gonna be dismiss... sigh... memories left ...peace out
Posted at 03:59 am by chianee
Dec 24, 2003
i'm bored... really bored.. wif my life ... hmmm... wats wf my life now... is a peaceful and nice life actually going school... and slackin aft sch at home.. meetin up wif my gf often and play bball every sat and go out for a movie or lil bit of shoppin aft dat... on sundae...i'l be stayin in msia and have some rest before a new wk begins..
my hols will begin wit going out with my frends, my malaysia friends, my friends hwo study in aust, my housemates and my ball team buddies.. and not forgettin my girl.. yea... den i'll start to look for a job and ending up wit none in e end.. slack will take place til sch starts... how nice rite??
but i dun like dat u kno... i dun wanna have peaceful life... of cos i wanna have peaceful life haha but i wanna have more excitment in my life.... i wanna go scuba diving... i wanna play a lot a lot of ball...play in competition ..i wanna play ball everyday.. challenge new ppl..challenge ppl who r beta than me...i wanna improve... i wanna join some cca in sch dat hav compeition ...where i can compete...
i wanna do travelling... i wanna go US and watch nba all star games ... i wanna go switz and stay in e alps... i wanna go france and stay in one of their small town. and experience their life... i wanna do so many things...
maybe dats y i'm going sailing next time... i wanna experience.. gd or bad..
hmmm tink i'll make dis my new year resolution.. to experience...
but i feel very bad... each time i spend time doing wat i wan means i'l spend less time wit my girl... she's e kind who like me to spend a lot of time wit her... yea.. how how...
but if i'm gonna do all these... she'll be very poor thing cos when i go out to sea after graduation she'll be all alone in spore... hmmm...
dats gonna be my life.....
Posted at 01:42 am by chianee
Dec 18, 2003
it's been a lonnnnnnnggggggg time...
my internet was terminated since i moved house and i jus got it connected back recently .. sorry abt the long wait guys haha..
i've been thru a lot of things this holidays man so many things to say~ haha.. let me talkk abt me shifting house.. yup i had to bid farewll to our very comfortable home at bkt timah cos the landlord is coming back from china and they need to stay in the house..ever since we received her email tellin us to move.. it was the beginning of the search of a new home.. and the search took more than a month cos we(lex chuan heng and me) jus cant get a place dat we feel comortable in... the most pitiful person was lex's mum cos she hav to travel out from msia almost everyday to bring us to view units and units of houses... yup... after more than a month .. this terrible search is all over! haha.. we settled in an empty house at chua chu kang.. and almost immediately we regretted it haha.. but it was too late cos we ored signed agreement for it.. i guess we were jus too tired to searchin a place and settled with watever comes next.. haha.. but since it is an empty house means dat we can customise the house to wat we wan so we tot it wont be dat bad.. yea..
then comes the interior designin part.. we had to discuss the furniture and decoration for the house and most imptly we had to minimise our budget ... tough job man tryin to create a beautiful home using minimum cost... after dat we hav to move all our belongings and new furnitures into the new place... dat took us like 1 whole week to do dat... den comes the cable fixture and setting up the furnitures.. until now we're still hanging on dat man haha...
and i helped my mum at her work.. she own a garment factory and she's been piled wif work lately so i went over to help her... i dreaded dat place bring a kid when i was young cos i have sensitive nose so whenever i enter the factory i would start sneezing non stop .. also because i didnt want to help out haha ... as this time i tot i can overcome dis dreaded feelin of the factory, i failed.... haha.. i quit after helping out for a week... very useless rite?? sigh...
oh yah one more thing.. i'm very broke now so guys.. if u hav any lobang for part time job.. tell me k!
Posted at 07:57 pm by chianee
Oct 27, 2003
when i was in sec3, i started playing at a court called fushan with a group of frens ... rain or shine we would alwaes meet on sat morning for basketball session.. although we came from diff schools diff background diff countries even (we travel over to spore jus to play ball on sat).. i remembered every sat after playing ball from 9-2 we would surely go to causewae pt tarco bell(become MOS burger now) for our fav buritos and large coke and lepak (malay word for slack) there til ard 4plus 5 before we head back to msia.. as the years go by our group became larger ..very soon it was like at least 15 people would appear every sat and everyone was pal to each other..
Everytime after ball session we would head for lunch at causeway pt and we would joke and prank on each other along the wae and during our lunch and everything was cool . We even wanted to form a ball team called Fuzan (taken from the name of the court we play at "fushan"). Very enthusiastic abt making our own jersey.. we got almost everything done : the logo, the theme, the stlye we wanna have and everything..
now i still play at fushan every sat .. everything is still e same.. but the people gets lesser and lesser.. the soul there no more...
I miss fuzan.. every much..and i miss everyone very much... that's y i wanna write it now...
Time changes people,
people change, attitudes change
priorities change, feelings change
even though fuzan is not what it used to be
the memories will still remain..
Posted at 12:12 am by chianee
