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Nov 17, 2004
My dream is to... hmmm instead of calling my dream, i tink it is more appropriate to call it my plans for the future. Sound more realistic..
After i graduate from Singapore Poly, i'm gon sail. I bet everyone who knows me knows that. A lot of people ask me.. why do i wanna take up such a job away from my family and frens? a job where i have to face the noise and dirt of the ship's engine everyday?
dats becos firstly i like to travel. I wanna take the opportunity to experience the world and meet many many frens from all over the world. I wanna experience hardship. Life is not life when there is no pain.
There is a lot of prospect for marine engineer. 7 years from now i'll be a chief engineer with my class 1. I'll be a surveyor or superintendent or a lecturer or ship architect. That gon last me for til i retire. That means i'll never run out of job. Unless i'm so lousy no company wants me haha!
So with a job like this, i plan to sail for 10 years maybe? After 10 years i'll probably be sick of sealife, travelled to many parts of the world. by then i'll work on short, saved up enough cash and settle down somewhere..
i'll buy a house in Melaka facing the sea. It'll be cottage lookin. The main door will be facing the sea. Dinner will be served at the balcony, everyday. There'll be a swing. Where i can sit there and enjoy the sea breeze. I'll buy a yacht. Everytime when i'm free i can go and take a spin out to the sea. Or i'll travel to tioman for a dive. Or penang for makan.
When i'm old, i'll stay there wit my wife. Everyday i'll sit on the swing and smoke my shisa and listen to reggae. every nighte, we can take my classic 1950 mini cooper out for dinner. During the wkends, i presume that my children will come and visit me. hah.. We have a spin out to the sea for fishing or we can take my hummer for a outing. I'm gon die there. The house will be pass to my children from generations to generations. I'll be remembered. Posted at 08:06 pm by chianee
Nov 5, 2004
i'm back again.. i didnt forget abt my blog dis time... i came here once i finished my exam.. isnt dat sweet? yea so i took some time off and did some studying.. but dun tink i can get da grades i wanna this time.. i'm only contented if i pass all my modules dis time.. since i didnt really have the mood to study.. i had to start really early cos info jus cant get into my head.. even so i didnt really study a lot.. instead i only did the most the day before the paper itself... so it aint gonna be good dis sem..
attachment is coming.. jus 3 days away.. fast huh.. exam jus ended and attachment is knockin on my door now..
i'm looking forward to it at the same time i jus hope everything will be alrite during my attachment and i wun screw any thing up..
lotsa things happened the time while i studied... lex got this new girl which i tink she's a nice girl and she is something lex alwaes wanted.. so he shd be very contented and lets hope everything will be fine wit him.. kahoo got his corn row which i didnt managed to catch since i stayed in spore to study da whole time.. dun worry i'm sure there's lotsa chance since we're so into black negro culture.. yea
and whenever i'm sick of studying.. i'll start building castle in da air... and i've sorta planned out my life story during the time.. wat i'm gonna do after my sch.. when do i get married.. how many kid will i get.. wat i wanna do in life so dat i wun regret before i die.. how am i gonna retire..
so many stuffs man.. dat really shows how much effort i put in my studies yea..
and i'll share wit ya'll in my next blog cos i'm kinda tired to type something soooo panjang..
and thanks to my klassmates who are msians.. i start to speak english with a lil champok of malay and i start to say balls.. like... thanks balls.. wats dat balls! weird huh.
well.. dats life.. u learn things u wanna learn and u pick up things and u dun even know abt it until u become so accustom to it u tink dats normal...
the only thing that don't change in life is change itself.. just hope to change for da beta.. u tell me Posted at 12:50 am by chianee
Oct 17, 2004
ermm.. da reason why i didnt update my blog is because after da exam.. i totally forgot that i have an online diary.. so.. i totally didnt recall anything until my long lost fren matthew asked me abt it..and so i'm back again. however i'm going to take another major exam in 2 weeks time.. so i'm afraid i won't be able to update again until after exam.. dat is if i can remember that i have this online diary.. in the meantime go n read other people's.
and also.. i'm going to have industrial training attachment after the exam.. during the holidays. which means i'll be working. dat means i dun have time.. so if i don't update my online diary, go read someone else's. this company i'm working for my attachment is Saab Marine Electronics Pte Ltd. u know??? the swedish car manufacturer Saab?? that is the one. Under the same boss. only that besides cars, they manufacture spare parts for ships as wlell. and just for the record, in sweden, they manufacture airplanes and fighter jets too..
so i sound very excited to be able to work there isnt it? in fact i am. i was hoping to go out to sail for my attachment actually but luck wasn't on my side.. since i couldnt sail, this company sounds interesting enough to arouse the butterflies in my stomach.
so dun worry i'll update the blog with my experiences in the company. if i don't forget that is.
Posted at 02:55 am by chianee
Aug 17, 2004
Girls. Built for the kill. Prey: Man.
recently i am surrounded by men. desperate men. Desperate for girls. and i wonder how i wonder why, yesterday they told me abt the blue blue sky, and all that i can see is my frens desperate for all the girlies.
As for me, i just wish that a girl that i'm comfortable with will come by. and we can hang out together over the wkend by the sea, in the club, across the causeway or just in the court with me. catchin a show and dinner would be nice too. is that considered desperate? strictly no relationship though. Is that asking for too much? hmm..
anyway exam is around the corner i have to juggle work with studies. aint got much time no more. Take care my readers.
i'll get back after my exam in sept.
Posted at 12:58 am by chianee
Jul 28, 2004
there is this girl living on da third floor in my block. i can see her room from mine, studying away every night. Being skinny skinny, no tits, and having a cute face, my roommate is attracted to her.
Dis is how the mission " get to know her" started.
from throwing papers to shooting paper bullets to standing directly below her window calling to her. We tried almost everything.
In da end, we still lost da war. She totally ignores us. When we had to stand below her window calling out for her, she used her ultimate weapon on us. Her Momma. We had to give up cos her momma came downstairs patrolling to look for us.
So our situation is: we have ran out of ideas; she knows where we stay; she knows we're looking at her and she is irritated by that.
any suggestion? Posted at 12:56 am by chianee
Jul 22, 2004
I'm at a cross junction in life now. i have to make choices which requires some sacrifices. There are 4 main conponents in my life now. Frens. Study. Work. Passion.
many a times i have to make a choice from the 4 given.
sacrifice fren for study.
sacrifice study for fren.
sacrifice passion for work.
sacrifice work for fren.
sacrifice passion for study.
the list goes on.
someone told me, if u wanna archieve something, u gotta make choices. u gotta learn to sacrifice, learn to say no. cos if u dun, u will forward 6 modules.
but i hate to sacrifice. esp frens. i'm nothing without em. now ya're telling me i gotta sacrifice em?
i cant. at least i'd try my best not to.
sometimes, a choice is no choice at all. Posted at 11:17 pm by chianee
This is da original.
have u ever hurt someone without even realising? said words that offended somebody without the intention to? surely everyone did.
scenerio 1.
A friend that u are close to suddenly shun away from u with no reason with no ryhme. Confused, u wanna find out the whole story. but this fren of yours just slash ignores. As u try to find out, the process leads to a whole lotta misunderstandings. and that's it. U just gotta stop what ya're doing and let Mr time finish it up for ya. With Mr time, like a yr or more? feeling gradually becomes mutual, misunderstandin forgotten, the both of u then realised that it was just some stupid misunderstanding.
scenerio 2.
u said something wrong/did something wrong. offended your fren. but u r dumb enough not to realise it. unhappy, he started to throw his temper on u, picks on u. being dumb, u just let the event comes cos u dun wanna offend him further. however u dun even know wat's going on. U just gotta wait. let him have his cool. In the end he got his revenge. U got shit.
so people, before u get angry with someone else,or u decide to ignore somebody, do some clarification with em. Maybe it is all just some kinda misunderstanding. Learn to understand. Learn to open up. i'm learning to. Posted at 04:41 pm by chianee
Jul 21, 2004
i jus wrote something on. It got cleared off.
damn...
Posted at 04:18 pm by chianee
Jul 7, 2004
this blog is about the current events in my life, just to update my homies.
School.
Last year i did not take my thermodynamics paper cos i overslept this 2pm paper. So i had to take supplementary paper. People, i passed. Yea so i'm in yr2 marine engineering now. School just started. I joined Scuba diving club, but i realised i dun have da money to go diving.So i guess i'm not going for it afterall. Think i'm gonna join some super slack cca just to pass da boring times in school. However i like to study now. As in i like to go for lesson now. Interesting course i took. Hm.. strange.
Family.
Bad. Having some tough financial difficulty at home. Business been bad for dad and momma. "prepare for the worst". They told me that. That's y i wanna find job. That's y i cannot go scuba diving. Think i should even consider letting my room away and go back to msia to stay. This is how bad it is.
Friends.
Went Kota tinggi with frens recently. Fantastic it was. we got to climb really steep rocks, passed through river banks. Got to enjoy the sensational pouring of the water from waterfall. Got to do some sorta cliff diving. Got to pitch tents, had some kinda bon fire, catch prawns and pee in mother nature.
I met up with roger. My SJI teacher. He's still as cool, telling me about his dirty stuffs. But he's looking old now. That's what time can do to a man. Da young getting older. Da older getting older. there's still people whom i haven meet. wanna meet. I wanna meet Calyn. A fren i haven keep in contact with for years. Zhen Li. Another fren whom i haven meet in a long time too. And Philip Pang. He's also a close fren of mine whom i always wanna meet up but can't find da time to.
Hair.
There's a reason i'm keeping my hair so long. i wanna make corn row. Lotsa people are opposing to this. But i've made my mind. Wanna try out something that people dun do. Wanna do something different. And i'm gonna make it this friday. Hope things will turn out well.
Girl.
I met this girl a couple of weeks ago. We got on well. But things didnt really last for long. Hm.. maybe i scare her away. ha.. i dunoe. Maybe is just a fling. I shall not elaborate.
Posted at 05:28 pm by chianee
Jun 28, 2004
i'm back. Bought a new laptop. chillin in a new apartment. made some homies. joined a new club.
Had been through experiences. da broke up wit ke, da conflicts wit heng, da reunion wit fat man HO, da oversleepin for ma exam, da genting trip, da very chillin and interesting Taiwan trip, the meeting wit Michael Jordan, da conflict wit ma old landlord, da shift to our new apartment, da supplimentary paper i had to take cos i overslept for ma exam. And i met ppl i wanna meet : my aunts and cousins in taiwan, Mr Michael Jordan, li si and hui ling.
yeea... so many things happened.. ask me abt it in msn or icq or sms or phone or our meet ups. i'll be glad to share =)
Hm.. i noticed girls likes it when a guy treats her well, eventually using her charm and some witch potion, and some flowery words saying dat she likes him. she'll make e guy like her. And when e guy really fell in love with her and hope to start a relationship with her, girls will start giving all sorts of reasons not to get involved with him. That sucks for da guy who is really sincere..
"i'm not ready" " i need to concentrate on my studies" " i'm afraid i'll hurt u"
If u really like da guy and u know that da guy really likes u, i dun see the how these 'reasons' can stop u from gettin into a relationship. unless ya wanna keep ya options open..
cos to me, love is not abt spending a lotta romantic times together or having da same interest and thinkings so that there's things to converse. It's abt having to commit to somebody mentally, trusting and supportin each other through times. So to me, if both parties really likes each other, da rest are mere excuses.
so girls... think abt it..
by the way. i'm looking for a part time job. If ya got any pls pls pls let me know and help me ask! thanks!
Posted at 11:38 pm by chianee
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